ohio. just thinking about it makes my stomach hurt but it's grey. it's so grey even now everything is so grim and dark fucking i cant precieve things normally anymore i guess they're right im just a fucking monster at this point 'poor girl needs mental ward' yeah you're so fucking right for that, aren't you i could always feel their eyes on me the whispers. they'd stop when i got close. like i couldn't hear them 'murderer' 'murderer' 'murderer' 'murderer' i guess that's just how it is all the colors i see around me are grey and orange the feeling of heat only scares me, and i would rather go back to the eternal cold i wear this stupid fucking green hoodie so i can hide myself away. i can hide my scars from everything else i dont like to get close to anyone else it's easier when youre invisible if no one sees you, no one can hurt you ... right? maybe it's me. maybe i am the problem. a magnet that's what he used to say